Being human, I tend to err. In fact, I find myself in error most of the time, either with strangers or friends. Statistically though, I run afoul with friends and myself more than with people I don’t know. Probably this is a incurable defect in myself due to my incredibly small amygdala which is a part of the brain that controls human’s ability to socialise with others. Read the Star for a glimpse of this study.
These past few months have witnessed myself getting into trouble with the few people I consider good friends. These were stupid mistakes which are outrageously stupid that I couldn’t believe I’m that stupid to commit such things. The only good thing about this is that I now have profound and absolute proof that I am stupid. Either that or my brain refused to think straight before acting such. Believe me, these few months also seemed to me like I’m floating in a cloudy dream where I struggle to comprehend my surroundings. I can’t really think straight to be honest.
Thinking today will be a new and better day doesn’t necessarily guarantee you just that. Barely two minutes after the clock stroke 8, I again blundered with a friend. I thought correct at first before the snafu but then again after the incident, I don’t really know what I am doing. I wonder only two things now; first when will I snap out of this and secondly, will my friends then forgive me? What kind of silly excuse for being plain stupid will I be able to cook up? I know a simple and sincere sorry will be more than enough but threading on someone’s foot for no apparent reason is shameful on its own to imagine much less to happen!
I guess my prevalent and utter lack of social skills is not by choice; it’s a disease progressively getting worse. The future suddenly is out of focus now. Even my MSI laptop and Google Chrome are acting up on me! Until I wake up from this nightmare or my amygdala grows further, I guess not much I can do at the moment apart from offering my sincerest and absolute apologies straight from the heart.
Friends, if you’re reading this, please forgive me. Guess I wasn’t thinking straight (or not at all). perhaps it won’t be as rosy as yesterday, but surely i’ll try to make our friendship smelling a lot better today. please accept the sincerest apologies a hopeless fool can ever offer!
And I hope things will actually get better as I do actually try to peek out from my humble abode and sniff the reality more often these days. I won’t want to find out one day that it’s actually better for the rest of the world that I remain here right in my fortress of solitude; it’s going to be one heck of a way to go!